twntyfive

I've decided to stop actively looking. I'm tired of feeling stressed out when things don't work out, especially when I'm actually interested. It's been about 3 months since I pushed myself into the wonderful (har har) world of dating and to be honest, the single life is not as great as they say. I know that a relationship is a whole new realm of a shit-hole, but sharing my life with someone seems better than going through it alone. To put it bluntly, I miss having someone.

As these 3 months flew by, I have learned a few things about myself and I've surprised myself by doing things I never imagined were in me to do. Meeting up with strangers and putting myself out there is something I would have replied with a "I don't think I could ever do that." Looking back, I still don't think I've experienced that "worst date" experience and I wouldn't be able to choose which date I regretted most. If anything, I've learned to overcome the awkward moments and vroooom through to get to the end of the night. Best date though? To this date, with a handful of dates under my belt now, the best first date still goes to RJT. I know, I know, it's been a good 3 months yet he still crosses my mind?! Why are you so lame, Judith? He was different and different is always unforgettable.