Oh but they really are. I just had the biggest breakdown so far in the past three days. I really don't deserve the love and support from my parents. It amazes me how much they care for me.
Anyway, I know I can get through this. I already know this is the right thing for us, for me, so the only thing to do is to get past it. I have my friends and even more, I have my great parents. And even more? I have my God.
I know I've lost myself in these past three years. No one, including myself, has known the real me. I don't even remember how I used to be but I know that whoever I am right now is not who I want to be. I spent three years tending to a relationship and now that it's no longer a part of my life, I'm going to be spending the next year(s) finding myself again. I do regret putting this relationship in front of school because now I have nothing. But my parents are right, it's just going to be a brand new start now. He's gone and it's time to start over. Brand new life, brand new me.
Even though I'm scared with the tears and heartbreak, I'm excited for what's coming next. I'm scared of breaking down again, I always get so scared when I start to cry.. :/ But I know that there's good things ahead for me. The healing journey is going to be a long one but I know I'm not alone. My parents are proof of that. You'll be okay Judith. Believe in yourself again. You got this.
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