It's day 5. It's been like a roller coaster ride these past few days. Sometimes I'm good, other times, tears just start rolling :P I hate it. It's better when I have work because I'm distracted and then when I get home, I'm just so tired, too tired to think. Sometimes I want to go out and see people and other times I just want to stick it out at home because I don't trust myself.
Friday, June 26th.
Friday was actually a good day. I didn't go to work on Thursday so Friday was a good distraction day. I had work but only 11 kids out of 20 came because of the swine flu case. I went out for dinner with my mother &brother and then went to pick up Allen around 9pm. Picked up Tony too and then we lagged around waiting for Mimi, Linda &Jason. Just decided to go to Nation's to wait for them and ordered first because I needed to leave soon. Allen treated :) Banana cream. On one hand I really wanted it and on the other, I didn't because it just brings back memories of SC. It's going to be like this for a bit huh? All the memories flooding back. Urg. Home around 12am.
#01 In the car waiting for Linda, Mimi &Jason.
#02 Tony's face d:
#03 Helsa yums banana cream pie that Allen treated :)) Allen &mine.
Princess Protection Program was premiering all weekend =.= I had to
change the channel every time it came on, whether it was just a commercial or the actual movie itself. And today at work, the kids brought it up.
"I saw Princess Protection Program this weekend!"
All I could say was "I wanted to watch that too' :[
Promises.
Anyway, today was a tiring day. Went home after to rest a bit and then went out again at 3pm to pick up my brother &Yanni and also stopped by Quicklys on the way. Tomorrow's field trip day to see a musical! Oh pray for me because it's going to be 16 little 6 year olds taking public transportation. Haha. And then I have Film class at 6-10pm. Oh boysies. I hope I don't fall asleep.
I feel a lot of fake smiles coming up.
"I hate goodbyes. I hate these tears in my eyes. I hate myself for the way I feel about you everytime. I've had enough. I'm sick of wishing you was around me every day, every night. It's way too much. I hate love."
I don't hate love, but it's a good song.
May 29:
DxHope (3:51:07 PM): TRUST
DxHope (3:51:10 PM): is EVERYTHING
XD J U D I T H (3:51:13 PM): Yeah I know.
DxHope (3:51:15 PM): realize before its too late..
It's so lame. Why do humans tend to always realize their mistakes after making them? Why do we tend to make the mistake even when we're warned or reminded beforehand? Why do we always regret things? Why can't we just live happily ever after?
So this was on someone's status on Facebook..
"Its extremely true that if you put God first, he does take care of you.."
The Bible's currently my favorite book these past few days. It's so amazing realizing that God has His way to comfort us in every situation.
Yeah, I know my blog entries are getting to be pretty random and long lately. Maybe I'm going to look back and just laugh at myself. OH WELL. I know whoever reads this will get to know me better and understand me more because I haven't been really talking about my feelings lately. Only to certain people though. It's these situations when you find out who's truly there for you, who's going to be there with a shoulder, who actually cares.
Anyway, I should end this entry now. I haven't had such a random, long entry in a long long time.
Pray for me tomorrow.
I'm gonna need some strength, God.
Thanks :))
Edit 8:40pm: =[ So jealous. Oh well, like I said before, it's none of my business anymore. It's going to happen sooner or later so I might as well get use to it. Oh God :[ It really feels like sprinkling salt on an open wound.
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