facing reality

Ah, I really should be sleeping. It's currently 1:03AM yet here I am, blogging. It's been an interesting day so it's only right to write it down right?

After a quick chat with Herman last night about my studies and current situation, I just had to make a move today. I called up the transfers department and went in right after class to talk to a counselor. Since it was only an "express" appointment, I was only able to talk to the guy to see what I should do to prepare for an actual appointment. I need to print out my unofficial transcripts so that we can figure out what's next. I'm scared. I really am, how could I not be? I've always been scared to face reality and here I am, about to face reality. In less than two weeks, I will be told where I am. It's going to be really hard for me but the truth should "set me free", correct? I think I need to be told the truth so that I can get myself back on track. So 1) I'm scared for the truth because I know I am super behind. 2) I'm excited to know where I am so that I can start taking the appropriate steps to getting out of this ditch.

It was also small group night. I'm really starting to enjoy small group again. Jeremiah is still a bore but there are lessons and reminders that hit me every time. Tonight's reminder for me was that I need to stop making "promises" to God when I'm in need and then forget them when life is going good.

During prayer requests time, I told the girls about the counselor meeting and how I am scared about it. We prayed about it and it was definitely something that I needed. I do pray that God will calm my heart in the days to come and I pray that whatever news coming my way will be something that I can handle.

My all-time favorite verse:

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

God is unchanging and forever faithful. Please continue to remember that, Judith.