twntyfive

Hello Blogger. My apologies for forgetting about you. For trying to, anyway.

I don't think much has changed since I was last here.
I'm still the girl who doesn't know what she wants to do in life, the girl who is still trying to figure the art of love, the girl who is still insecure, jealous, and sensitive. If anything has changed, it's the fact that I'm much more protective of myself and much more sensitive to certain things. I hate seeing people being run over and I try to not let people take advantage of me. But that's about it.

I'm still the girl with rabbits. From 11 to 4, technically it's not much of a change; still a lot of work. I'm still the girl with a great family; just a few bumps here and there. I'm still the girl who has a few good friends that I can rely on though not talk to much. If anything has changed, it's the fact that I have a job now and am a few pounds heavier because I have the money to feed myself good food. Sadly. I'm trying to lose the weight but since I have a decency to stop exercising, I'm doing it slowly. I already cut out all the junk food and junk...drinks from my diet. No chips, no cookies, no snacks from work. I try to exercise when I can. I just jumped for a few minutes last night and my thighs are sore as heck. My brother says that I'm pretty out of shape and I'm going to have to agree. But I'm motivated. I want to lose the pounds by summer.

I've met a few new friends. Not one is good friend status yet but it's good talking to them here and there. I thought one would be but it turns out that he's too busy with his own life to care about his social life aka friends. I feel like he talks to me when he's free and throws me away when he's busy. What kind of friend does that.....sigh. Don't take me for granted, good sir.

Boyfriend wise, I love him still. We went through another little bump around this time last year, but besides that one, we are good. I think there are some things that I will never forget. I really wish I could because it's just something that keeps dangling in my face from the past, but I really can't. The feeling of betrayal is a feeling that one will always remember. I don't know if I've ever truly forgiven him for it. And you know what? I highly doubt he knows it. To him, he might not have even done anything wrong. It's the sad truth. I love him and I love our relationship, but I will never let a person make me feel that way again. To feel betrayed, forgotten, thrown to the side, replaced.

I'm 21 now but guess what?? The hype to drink is still a hype to me! I think it is RIDICULOUS how people go crazy just because they turned 21. It's stupid, it's stupid, and it's still stupid. Drinking is not that fun and it just embarrasses people in the end. I mean..it's cool to drink here and there...but it is NOT something to write about on every status or tweet. It is NOT something to look forward to every day and night.

Yeah, I haven't changed much through this past year.
I'm still me.