twntyfive

So I took the time to read some people's blogs, some of my own past entries, and the time to look at old pictures. All of that reminiscing left me two thoughts - 1) I miss everything. 2) If I could turn back time, would I have chosen the same paths, made the same decisions?

I've honestly been thinking about that question for a couple of hours now and I think I've come to my final answer. And that is...I gotta start trusting God more. Haha, but honestly, I don't regret much. Sure, "bad" things happened. Friendships were cut, broken. Hearts were torn. Academic grades went haywire. But all in all, everything's turning out okay.

1. Friendships.
I lost some good friends. Matthew G. Gee. Connie Lui. Bonny Chen. Diana Huang. Those first three are obviously impossible to even befriend again. I've tried. The fourth, things are coming along :) Through these friendship battles, one of the "sayings" that I've come to live by is "It takes two". Yes Van, I believe in that too. It's like playing with a seesaw. It takes two to get it moving correctly.

2. Love game.
Just kidding. It's not a game to me. Not at all. Ever been scared to fall in love? I barely think about that. But when I do think about it, it hits me that I am. I'm scared to fall back in that hole. Oh I am. But I think things are going well right now. Or at least that's what I'm feeling. I wonder what you think..

3. School isn't cool.
So I wasted my last year. But for some reason, I feel different this year. When I go to class, I'm actually paying attention. Or at least I really try to. I've been keeping up with homework. Way different than last year. Let's hope this is a change in me.



BUT ANYWAY. I'm really content with life right now. I'm hoping for a good 2010 year. And November will be one year for us. That's kind of crazyy o_o Gotsa start planning =)




Things to be blogged about tomorrow: stargazing<33, PEANUT, &iTouch.