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So this afternoon, I went to my archives and checked what happened today a year ago. March 4, 2008. Weird enough, a year ago's today, was the day that Connie IMed me. It was the day that pretty much ended my friendship with not only Connie, but also Matt.

I remember last year when Connie &me talked online after a few months of drifting, she told me that she felt like I didn't really care about losing her as a friend, it seemed like I cared about losing Matt more. Honestly, I believe that is still true as horrible as that sounds. I know that I look back on our friendship a lot to the point that it may get annoying to read, but once again, it is my blog :P

-Sigh- I guess it's my fault in many ways too. I didn't put much effort into saving our friendship even after we said we'd put it all behind us. But neither did you.

I miss how we would laugh together. Make stupid jokes. Draw people in the drawing pad and then make people guess who they were. Ask each other if we had a booger in our nose. Procrastinate on Physiology homework. Get in trouble all the time from Soave together. I miss how I could make fun of you &Albert all the time and you wouldn't get mad at me. I miss how we would have those rare serious talks. I think I just miss you.



But I really think it's time for me to forget this. To leave it all behind me because I'm sure you have. I'm sure I don't even come across your mind. I didn't even get a happy birthday from you on Facebook. How much did that hurt? A bundle.

It's been a year. It's been a year since the end of our carefree friendship. Let's make this the last time I'll ever talk about you on my blog &private blog.

"Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart."
Obviously you left a footprint in my life.