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#01 CHRIS TOMLIN CONCERT! (: 7 day countdown! Not only 7 day countdown to the day of the concert, but also 7 day countdown until I see my baby!


#02 So I'm kinda in love with the watch that Nina bought herself, me &Becky from McDonalds today :) Una dollah! I want the Hello Kitty one too, but they stop selling it tomorrow :(

So I haven't blogged in a bit but I've been keeping myself busy which is good because it is SO better than sitting around over thinking useless crap. Let me recap a bit.

Monday: SMALL GROUP! :) We decorated mittens :)

TUESDAY: Barged into Donald's room right after he got off work at 5pm because I didn't want to stay in my room. Hah, watched TV +played Gunbound+Skyped with baby. 10pm, Willson wanted a date so I dropped my stuff back in my room and went to meet him up. We went to VM and he treated me to Pom and we talked and caught up. Ended date and then GB with Herman until pretty late.

WEDNESDAY: Met up with Becky for accountability and talked a lot. It felt so good to just tell her what's been happening and my struggles. After that, met up with Gary &Eric and we worked on some stuff for retreat. Met up with the other freshmen from Pulse at 930pm to talk about retreat stuff. 10pm, went to find Donald and show him his shirt too :( I helped him wash his WHITE Stussy shirt and now it's kinda pink. OOPS. Good he didn't get super angry like he did when Simon messed up his shirt :P Anyway, talked about stuff and he totally enlightened me. Haha. I thought the stuff he told me over and I realized that he was totally right. Said goodnight to him and went back to my room. Talked to Herman and told him my enlightenment and it felt good to just..kinda let it all go.

THURSDAY: Honestly, I have to tell you, I woke up happy. I haven't woken up happy for a long time because every morning this past week, I wake up feeling worried, upset or sad. I hope that tomorrow morning will be the same =) ANYWAY! Right after class at 245pm, I went to Becky's house to help make cookies for retreat :] Who else was present? Let me see if I can remember all their names..Nina! Becky, Lizz, Gary, Eric, Kenny, and then later Mark & Jesse came. Nina is super adorable and kyute. I love her personality. After baking for a bit +bonding, we went to McDonald's to buy watches because I saw Nina's and it was soo kyute =D She ended up buying 5 more. LOL. She bought one for herself, Becky, me &two other people =D And she has her own longboard too which she named Toby! Four of them had longboards -super jealousyyy :O Left around 7pm and was gonna go back to my room to drop down my backpack first but then Donald texted me to eat. Ate. Pulse (fellowship). &now I'm here.

As usual, my blog's pretty boring. Hah, but it's for me to write about what happens in life so I can read back because I LOVE TO READ BACK ON MY BLOG! No lie. When I have time, I always go back to the past months and just read.

Hmm. It's been 3 months and 16 days. Let's reflect. I feel this relationship is really going to strengthen me up. I see that sometimes I just care too much about random, small things and I need to "learn not to care" which is what Donald told me to do =P I learned that keeping myself busy and "having a life" helps me to not over think and I love it :)

It's funny because in society today, the phrase "I love you" is so overused, who knows what love really is? Who knows how it feels? Who knows when you really "love" someone? I guess this can describe it.

Baby, I don't know what love is
Maybe I'm a fool
I just know what I'm feeling
And it's all because of you

But honestly, I still like to hear you say it (: I know, I know. I'm spoiled.
Though it's been really hard for me this past month, I'm ready to continue on. I'm ready to just let things go. Let's hope that it won't be extremely hard to do because it's always easier said than done.

From November 4th, 2008 blog:

"What you got is what I need. I'm loving everything I see. We fit perfectly."
No lie. You know that feeling when you found yourself a good thing? Yeah. That's wsup.

Yeah, that still stands. I know I found myself a good thing :)





Stop cheesing, babe :)