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"I've been pushing hard to open up the door.."


Look what I found..
(-hides behind my screen-)

#01 Chubby cheeks.


#02 Gosh, you use to be such a cheesy kid.


#03 LOL HELLO!

So I'm addicted to THIS song. Yes, I changed my song again. Just because this song...it's like I wrote it myself or something. I discovered it when I was bussing this morning and it came on. Thanks Jonkneezy<3

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Lately I've been thinking about what I can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

*Chorus
I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cuz we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I
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Just today, I realize how stupid I am. How silly. So fucking stupid. SO SO SO stupid. Damnit. I don't know what I feel more - sad at the situation or mad at myself. SO STUPID. Damn.

Life is really really really gay right now.
And I really really really mean it.

GAH. GAH. I'M FEELING SUPER UPSET RIGHT NOW. SUPER UPSET. SUPER SUPER SUPER. THE FUCK.

Bye.