twntyfive

I can't even explain how I'm feeling. It's like a tornado inside of me and my feelings are just crawling around everywhere. To see us like this hurts so bad. I'm hurt by his coldness. But what the fuck can I do ? It's my fault in the beginning and at the end, it's still my fault. Everything around me reminds me of him. Everywhere I turn, it's like bam. I can't deny that I still like him, but I also can't deny that I don't want to be invovlved. This reminds me those dramas. Where you like someone, but you're not with them, so you love them "secretly" and do things for them 'cus that's how you show the love. Ah fuck. I doubt he will read this. I'd never admit these feelings to him anyways. I doubt everything will turn out okay in the end. I doubt I'm gonna get over this soon. But whatever yeah ? As long as I still see him happy, that's all that matters now.

Even though you are no longer here
There is still something between us
Even though life isn't fair
I'll never lose my trust